About being too hard on myself

I made a decision of making every step possible to give myself the highest chances to start a good fighting career. In January I teamed up with a sport psychologist. Yes, I do have a Doctorate in sport psychlogy, but I cannot give a session to myself. So, we had many topics to talk about, such as fear, agression, focus etc. One of the things that helped me a lot was self confidence.

​I am the person who would always criticise myself in my mind. During sparring, I would tell myself: "What was that?!". That's the way of how I used to pushed myself over the last 20 years. Never satisfied. But now, I need to change this. One of the homeworks I got was to draw a staircase, and after each training session write down what I have improved in, on one step. It's great, not only I have a record of some, even they are small, achievements. Now when I ask myself what I am "good" at, instead of "nothing", I have my staircase as reference.
​But also I started to talk to myself much more in a positive way. "That was better. Try it again!" So many things fighting is teaching me...

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